My luv since a long time...

Let me recall the first time I actually started liking dogs.I think I was bout 6-7 years old when I first met Gypsy.He was my uncle's neighbour's dog and I used to keep seeing this pomeranian barking and running around.I used to enjoy watching him play and gradually I went ahead to ask the aunty if I can touch him and play with him.He turned out to be friendly,I am sure if he wasnt then I wouldn have gone near any other dog.i used to find excuses to go to my aunt's place just so that I can jump into my neighbour's compound to go meet gypsy.
Time passed and one day I heard that he died, I was in Saudi then.


It was always a dream to own a dog of my own and take care of it.It was in 11th standard that I finally got home a 35 day old Dobermann Pinscher.He was red and tan,not the usual black and tan.I had named him Spike and he was the best.He was very obedient and damn cute.Unfortunately I dont have any pics of him.When he was 4 months old he started to get a little on the ferocious side.Even if my mom or grandmum shouts at him he used to snarl back and get into the attacking position.I had to get down from my room to make him listen or to even tie him up.It was getting difficult when he refused to shit/piss outside when I used to take him out for a walk.He had to do it in the terrace.His aggressiveness was not very welcome esp when talks like if I am not at home grandma wont be able to handle him.He used to bark non stop if guests were at home even when he was tied up in the terrace.His senses were that sharp,ofcourse he is a Doberman! One day with great difficulty and pain we decided to give him away to a breeder.It was a very emotional day and even my grandmum held him with tears rolling down.We gave him away and that day itself we thought we'll bring home a more mature dog that can be handled.

Me and My mum fell in luv with a very obedient Golden Retriever.He was about 1 year old and totally trained.He was no replacement to Spike but we brought him home.He was a great dog.He would do his business only if he is taken out for a walk,which lead to the next problem.I had horrible timings back in Puc,I used to leave home at 6 and return at 6.Till then he wouldnt dirty anywhere.I was making it very uncomfortable for him to hold his nature calls for a straight 12 hours.I couldnt do anythin to my timings and there was no one at home one particular week.I was very upset and didnt want him to suffer in this manner.I gave him away too and requested the breeder to place him in a good home.I didnt want anything in return.Bruno,he was called.Wish I didnt have to give him off that day.I really wish I hadnt done that.Its been a regret.



Miss you Bruno..



That day I decided that I will own a dog when I have the time for it.I will make time for it when I am settled in my job.I feel really helpless when I go for these dog shows and cant bring a pup home.If I bring home a dog I want to give it my time.

I am particularly in luv with Rottweilers and Dobermanns.Boxers too,there is something bout these tail-less dogs.



(Pic: With the Dobermann Pinscher)



I have been in luv with the Rottweiler breed for 5-6 years now and thats going to be the dog I will pick up one day even if I have to pay 30k.The wait will be long but I will pick up a Rottweiler pup once I am settled in life.




(PIc : Rottweiler )

Post Internals.

I havent had the bloody time to spare for a post from a long time.After multiple reminders on my phone I thought I'll do it soon after my 3rd round of internals.Unlike previous semesters this time for once I am glad about the way the whole internals season.Everything went as per plan - the last minute notes,group discussions,etc.


During Process Integration test:

Scene - Test just started and I am still reading through the questions. Samitha. our HOD walks in.

The next moment I knew she will call out my name.She has this major dislike and I knew that she will definitely try to irritate me.

HOD: 'Rajan,pls cum to the first bench' (First try to irritate)
Me: (I just nodded)


After 5 minutes she switches off the fan


Me: 'Ma'am can I have the fan switched on,pls' ( I made sure I squeezed in that word pls)
HOD: 'No,its pleasant out here.There is no requirement of the fan,you continue writing. (Second try to irritate)

After 15 minutes,she is just walking around in the corridor and decided to drop in yet again just to irritate.

HOD:'Rahul,pls sit properly'
(And yes success,final irritation)

Bloody hell I have been quietly sitting there right from the start and still she will find ways to nudge me for something or the other.

Oh yes, I forgot one more time she wanted to irritate. I am just done with that test and I walk out to check the notice board.There she popped out again,god knows from where.

HOD:'Rahul Rajan,pls leave the dept.Your friends will finish and come down'

Arrggh..So bloody irritating!


Now the grind is finally over and the struggle to finish studying for the coming up exams is gonna be hell esp now that it is winter.The bed is so inviting for a long 12 hours sleep.

I dont get the freaking time for anything at all and how does time pass by, I have no clue! Its just the same thing day in and day out.I am eagerly waiting to be done with college,get out of this whole monotonous daily routine of going to college,attending classes,labs,records,assignments,internals,etc.I want a change and I am hoping it is a good one by the time I am done next june.

I wanted to review the novel I picked up months ago but am sure now I wont have the time to do esp when I am flipping thru ten pages during the morning Crapping session.I am still struggling to finish it, I think I am half way through it. FYI the novel is called 'Of course I still love you till..I find someone better'.The author is some ex student of DCE(Delhi college of engineering), I dont recall his name.Maybe next time.

Meanwhile I have finally got my hands on the Knight Rider series with the Ford Mustang GT500.I used to watch it when I was a kid,guess it was a Corvette then.I totally loved cars from that day! Once again I dont get time to watch so now I club it while I am having my dinner or sunday lunch.I stopped watching the tv and now finish one episode of the famous car series daily.

I did watch two episodes of Jonathon Miller's - A brief history of Disbelief.I will feature about it in a post sometime later when I have time on my hands.

Various other things have been in my head and mind is never in peace.I am trying not to get worked up about things and just letting it be or even letting it go.I was never this way before,used to be the very carefree kind.It did affect my studies and now when I finally got hold of my studies I want to have the old me back.Rest of the time atleast.I am working on it and it might take a while.

Want to have that one calm late evening on the beach.Probably listen to the track 'Knocking on heavens door'.This is going to take a few years though.I must learn the guitar by then.Will play and sing for just myself.Definitely want to be alone then with no hazzles in life or tension.Hate handling pressure or take tension about anything.

For the old me,later than never.

Sayonara

Views on Religion

Recently I was going through my cousin's blog and I came across a very strong post. The post was titled 'Ridiculously religious'.Atleast he is sure he believes in god and hope he exists. I have been thinking about the existence of god for years now and everytime when people ask me if I believe in god I really didnt know what to say.There are times I have said yes and sometimes I have said no,not very sure of what I was saying every single time.What came in my mind then, I let it out in words if I really had to answer anyone's question.The next likely question would be 'Why dont you believe in god?!'.That's where I used to get stuck,I didnt have any answer then nor do I have an answer now.Yes definitely there are Holy books from each and every religion that says God exists. So how many God's really do exist?! Each one for every religion?! The fact there is only one god makes a lot of sense when you keep hearing people say 'The All Mighty'.

Back in my school days in Saudi there were verses of Quran being recited as a part of the morning assembly.We used to always have a translation to the original verse in english.It always said 'In the name of the all mighty,the most gracious,the most merciful'.I dont know what the Quran says but atleast they believe there is an all mighty power.There is some sense in Islam.Everyone who is a muslim believes in Allah.

Once again back in Saudi there were these prayer groups,christians.Some made lot of noise whereas some were the silent praying kinds.Here nothing makes sense,there are different groups! People who believe in Jesus,those who dont,those who believe in god knows what,those who wear jewellery,etc.I failed to understand all this over years and over time I have found most beliefs really ridiculous! Oh yes,once for easter I had gone to this church(more or less like a huge workshop converted to church), I had been forced to go for it.It was a couple of years back,I really didnt gain anything from going there than just raising hands up in the air and shouting out loud 'Alleluya!'.No idea what that meant but yes I found it weird and I decided that I would never go to such a church again.I do find a lot of peace going to the Infant jesus church in Blore,its quiet and its very relaxing.

Coming to hinduism,I am still very clueless about different gods, god names, their incarnations, their respective stories,etc. Its humanly not possible to keep track of all this. I used to enjoy watching the Mahabharatha but still the details very hazy.

Its been a few years now that I have been analysing things on my own.I dont believe anything just coz its been done in the world.Maybe its all true,maybe partly is and maybe nothing at all.I dont know.I used to think I am an Atheist at some point of time i.e I dont believe in the existence of God.Later I thought that it was too strong a term when I still do things I am supposed to/asked to like going to a temple,pray for a few seconds in the Puja room on the considered auspicious days.I dont have a problem doing such things nor really mind them.Atleast there is nothing wrong in all this,I cant sit and explain myself to everyone.Instead I just do things that are supposed to be done, it will definitely avoid people from considering me a social outcast or against god or anything stupid like that! It gives me some kind of peace being in specific temples like ISCON and the Shiva temple in blore.Its calm and there is something about the place.

There are days I go alone to a temple just coz I want to and not coz I have been asked to.I dont like being told anything more than once.I take a long walk,sit on the temple floors listening to the bhajans playing,people sitting with their eyes closed lost in thoughts or prayers,etc.Its very refreshing once in a while.

I am an Agnostic.

(An agnostic does not deny the existence of God and heaven but holds that one cannot know for certain whether or not they exist)

Afterall I am a science student,I need experimental proof.


Disclaimer: If I have hurt anyone's feelings/emotions/beliefs,it was not intended and I apologize for the same.

Just dropped by

I dont remember when was my last post,think its been a while.I always have in mind that I have a post to put up but then due to lack of time I always forget bout it at the end of the day.So now I have conveniently pushed it to this weekend.Lot of things in my to do list havent been done yet and all I have is a sunday to do them.Right from the simplest being cutting my nails.Its been a week since its set as a reminder on my phone and still at the end of the day I havent managed to spare 5 minutes for it.

I am in no mood to review the movies seen over the past two weeks but yes i can definitely mention them.Orphan(Thriller - 4/5),All the best(Stopped watchin in 15mins - Pathetic nonsense) and London dreams(Great storyline - 3.5/5).I loved Michael Jackson's 'This Is it' though.He is truly a legend.If the London concert ever happened,it would have been the BEST performance on stage world would have ever seen! MJ's music will live on forever.

Rumours once again about the VTU exams being postponed by a week.They do this postponing shit every bloody year.I dont understand then why the hell do they send an exam timetable to all colleges by the start of the semester.I am hoping the dates dont shift and remain the same as of the first notice.

Its been a long while since I have been having this particular interest for photography in me.I never got the chance to exploit it with a professional camera.I dont like the mini slim ones you get, be it 10 or 12 megapixels - the ones that are usually meant for picnics,get togethers,etc.Today I fell in luv with my cousin's camera.Nikon D90,that says it all.Guess it was a 12.9mp digital camera.Oh the feel of it was remarkable! Its on my Wish list, I will own it one day and then fulfill my dream of Wildlife photography.I'll wait for that day eagerly..

Rest someother day,
Taking off for a relaxed weekend.
Adios.