Carpe Noctum . . .

....The End...

2010-12-11T00:49:00.002+05:30

...As I am super bored with the layout Blogspot offers and coz I have spent more than half a decade experimenting in this domain I have decided to move on to something better.

So pls re-direct yourself to WordPress. You can click on the link below.

Life is callin' , Where are you !?

Thank you.

Bye Blogspot. Thank you for tolerating me for this long.

Signing off.
Rahul.

PS : This blog will self destruct itself in 30 days. Dated to die : 11.1.11.

Moody Moments

2010-12-10T10:33:00.002+05:30

With just ten days left for the End sem exams, I am having such drastic mood swings. I dont even know why. I get up in the morning and I start feeling very dull and then that over a few hours makes me very moody. I cant wait to be done with this course and this place. On the emotional front I always feel very lethargic and the excitement is nil.

18 days, thats the countdown now. Finally I am glad a semester is coming to an end.

Keep Flock'in...

2010-12-03T18:40:00.002+05:30

Thats the tag line for the latest internet browser. Its called Flock, initially introduced for the Mac and now moved on to Windows. I am thoroughly bored of Mozilla and I gave up the internet explorer long back. Chrome by google is still way better. Rockmelt that was introduced a while ago is like chrome itself but its got more focus on how to stay hooked to Facebook all the time. Flock on the other hand decided to merge more than just facebook into the whole Chrome type layout. The tabs are a little more sharper than chrome though. So yeah, I was telling about the merging factor. Flock has got Facebook, Twitter, Flickr, Youtube, Linkedin, etc. You can sign into them simultaneously and have them pop out in every corner as sidetabs. I forgot my Twitter password and nothing exciting is happening on Flickr so I signed up only for facebook. Must say its pretty convenient and the browser has no major hiccups as yet. I have been using it from the past 2-3 days and so far so good. Some change is good and necessary, like I always say.

Everyone is on Facebook, every tom dick and harry. The excitement has finally died. Now you'll be shocked if someone says they are not on Facebook. You'll be like 'Are you a part of this world!?' Right from the kid who's learnt what a computer is and can move the mouse to people who have crossed the 60 age mark is on the social networking site. I am still under the general notion that its meant for one to keep in touch with friends. I dont like the idea where relatives get together and have a chat on fb or post on each other's wall. That's so lame. Its my perspective. I am sure my parents dont think they way I do. I have my own thoughts and so I have restricted my profile to my friends. Initially I used to keep getting requests on fb from Cousins, I knew then that everyone's getting hooked to this new fascination. I got off Fb once and then re-joined. At one point of time I had started deleting people from my list I know randomly. When I say randomly I mean the ones from school with whom I've never had a conversation as such but just know that he/she exists. I did that for a while, removing people from the list. Later it became a pain when I realised that I have to got through close to 750 of them in my list. I gave up immediately.

Now FB is boring as hell. Interest to chat aint there anymore, moment I click on it there are about 50 odd people in there. How many do I chat with at one point of time?! MAdness! Hoping something new comes up soon in the web world.

Oh I got a new fascination, my phone. After my Nokia Express music started giving me trouble with the network and the battery back up I shifted to something much cheaper. Blackberry! Cops in the city used to use this for giving the bikers a bill. I have seen it in the hands of only businessmen before and even heard that its meant to make business easier. So finally when this fell in my hands, I was not too sure if I'd like it. It was more like a replacement to my dead Nokia. QWERTY keypad , I wasnt used to it. I knew for sure that I cant type like old times, fast.. Very fast. With time I've gotten used to it and I am at a moderate typing speed. I like every bit of the phone now and trust me Nokia is like piece of crap when in comparison to the Blackberry Operating system. It hasnt hung even once unlike the Nokia which used to catch like a fever every now and then. BB internet/messemger and email service is outstanding.

Presently with every emotion running within me I take an oath to be a loyal customer to Blackberry and never go back to Nokia again. Its either the BB or the Iphone next. Nothing else will do. I still dont have fascination for the Iphone but the Macbook..Drool Drool ;)

Movie Review :

Takers : 3.85/5 ; Pretty good stuff but the whole concept ain't new. Its the usual Million dollar robbery. Good nigga english, always enjoy their talk. The guy from 'Eight Below' and '2 Fast 2 Furious', dont know his name but yeah decent job!

17 days for exam, so I'll get back to my books. Until the next time some thought rushes into my head.

Sayonara.

Chilly Nights

2010-11-29T19:46:00.003+05:30

Late evenings and nights are getting way too chilly for me to handle. As far as I can remember I have never experienced any temperature below 18, I think. Presently its 11degrees here in Dehradun and I am refusing to even step out of the room. After much thought I have finally decided that I will quit gym till temperatures go back to a level I can think of working out. Gym and then walk back to my hostel from University, that takes a lot of preparation. I cant prepare my mind nor body for it. Now I'll go back to eating whatever I want and at whatever time I want, I cant care anymore. Dream of Abs have been postponed to a much later date :)

With just 20 days left for the exam, I am tensed. Unlike times during Btech I knew there will be Mayank to teach me last minute. Here I have to save myself, I am sure I dont have any other choice. Got a shit load of assignments and tests lined up in the coming days and because of the damn cold I am getting lazier by the day. Shifting permanently to the bed under the blanket with the laptop would be a wise thought. Its time to open the Ebooks I've downloaded.

Thinking of having a shower in the morning itself takes so much preparation especially if the hot water runs out. Damn, I miss Blore more than ever.

Sick Leave.. Guzaarish!

2010-11-25T13:23:00.002+05:30

I have been sick from the past 2 days, the usual throat pain and cough. Sometimes even slight wheezing. When I am sick , I like to sleep and do nothing productive. I have no interest to even attend the college main fest starting from tomorrow. After seeing Utsav, I know UPES CANT beat that standard. Secondly I am lazy, I might as well relax in my room than run around from morning to late evening trying to catch a glimpse of all the events taking place. When I have a day off I keep thinking about how different life is here and how much it has changed right from the time I left Bangalore. There is no more roaming around on Brigade road, eating all the junk possible, the numerous movies I used to go for, argue with the Auto rickshaw guy when he demands 1 and a half meter, my super cool gym in the evening I used to hate missing. Here I have accepted and got adjusted to the bare minimum and now I dont even complain. Life during Btech years were different and they were good. We had no tension of completing assignments, appearing for the Internal test every month, attendance, etc. Here mind is so preoccupied with all this that there is no day off and I cant ignore any of it as I am sure there will be consequences.

I got my end sem exams in less than a month and the tension is mounting day by day. The need to do well is finally in the head and its making me more cranky and at times I lose my temper so fast. I always keep looking forward to the good things in life, like after my exams I am going home for 10 days. I know thats not enough but I dont think I have a choice either.

Life is pretty monotonous, I must say. There is no more excitement involved and the interest to do something different has died in me. Maybe its the course structured in such a manner that there is no room for thought process. This time I picked up a small 'Learn yourself - German' book and I have been trying to read through a few pages on a daily basis. This continued for 3 days and then soon we had this shit load of assignments and tests lined up for next week I decided I will resume it during my holiday break while I am at home and have nothing much to do during post lunch hours. I need to brush up on my basics too, I am hopeful to find time for the same.

I'll move on to the Movie review section.

Guzaarish : Genuinely good movie. By watching the promos it might look like a boring dull movie and you might be doubtful as this time Hrithik ain't doing any dance. Still must watch the movie for the well depicted storyline.

Rating : 4/5

The Social Network

2010-11-21T18:50:00.002+05:30

Mark Zuckerberg, drop out from Harvard and a born Whiz kid lost his friend but managed to give the world a social network with which they can keep in touch with all their friends. This Social networking site now is called 'Facebook'. The only site we open first as soon as we click on to our web browser. Some of us have set it as the default web page and rest of us type it so fast that even if a competition is held as to who can type www.facebook.com there will be a million people clocking the same time. We are thankful to the whole idea, Fb makes Orkut look like a shithole. I myself have dropped out of Orkut a few years back, they have improved no doubt in their privacy settings but the kind of comfort and networking fb offers is tremendous. If you haven't seen the movie yet pls do soon. I will give it an overall rating of 4.5/5. After watching the movie you will question yourself as to what you are doing in life. Everything you do in a normal day will look so pointless. If you are not doing anything extraordinary them you are bound to feel the same. I was lost in thought after watching the movie, I am not doing anything different either.

Caution : If you are not in Harvard , do not drop out. It will do you no good...:P

Post B'lore trip

2010-11-08T16:40:00.002+05:30

I am back after a week long trip to my favourite city in the world. For so many reasons I feel I belong there, no amount of material happiness can replace my love for the city - Bangalore. Now that I am back in Dehradun, I feel like crap. The only point being so far away and its not like if I get a weekend off I can go to Blore. One week seemed very short, I have no idea how time passed by so quickly. The phase right now is moody and will remain till things get back to normal here. I hope it does quickly, all I can think of right now is to finish this Mtech soon and leave this place. Its getting cold here. I dont enjoy peak winters, a decent 15 degree range is alright. Anything below will be a big pain and I am sure I have to face that this december. I am praying for time to pass and soon it should be May/June.

Countdown to the end of the semester has already begun : 7 weeks.

I will post shortly once I am in a better mood.

Black Pepper

2010-10-18T22:04:00.005+05:30

The week long marathon has finally come to an end.
6 days , 6 papers and 100 marks each. I thought VTU was bad, this is like the worst ever. Especially when all the papers have questions that you have totally no clue about. Its a big pain when questions are not handpicked from the text book, its not the usual mugging and vomiting theory/sums like how I did in Btech. Its way tougher and I realised that I should have spent more time reading concepts that would stay for longer in my head than just for a 3 hr paper. All previous memory has been erased by default and now I am just tugging along trying to remember all the matter that is necessary for the next two years.

Anyways after I was done with my exams I had been to this restaurant called Black Pepper on Rajpur rd, Dehradun. I dont have a pic of the dishes we ordered nor do I have a pic of the interior. All I can do is paste a copy I found online, thanks to Google Images. So we had this awesome Rogan gosht ( Mutton ) with Roti followed by a Chicken Biriyani. The former was out of the world, I havent had something even slightly close to the Mutton curry in years. Biriyani I would say is ok, not the typical Andhra style you get back in the south and the one I am so used to. Still aww about it. Price was pretty reasonable considering its the best in the city, atleast thats what I'v heard. I would definitely go back here.

Image source : Google Images

Ambience : 4/5
Taste : 4.75/5
Service : 3.75/5
Price : About Rs. 275/-

Over Hyped

2010-10-03T18:06:00.003+05:30

I just woke up from sleep and all I want to do is run back to Blore. Weekends at Doon get very monotonous and boring,lack of civilization and socialization bugs me a hell lot. Now I am certain as to why I dont like Kerala/Gulf. Its the same factor, lack of enough socialization. Atleast when I keep comparing it to Bangalore I know the difference. I cant believe its been 2 months since I got here and very soon it will be the end of the semester. I am hoping the next 1 year goes by quickly,manage a project in a city maybe. Arrgh.

The CWG has finally kicked off and unfortunately wont be able to see the crowd and the arrangements due to the mid sem exams starting next week. Not that I am really interested in sports but for the hype! Talking about hype two things come to my mind, one being the Ayodhya matter which settled down with no big a deal. This kind of decision and verdict they could have given years back than pushing it to the very end where people would have actually gone mad and maybe we would have had a nation wide bandh for 2-3 days. I think UPES still will be on a roll with classes as we stay way far from the city for anything to affect us.

Another hyped up matter would be a guy and a girl in a relationship. I thought we moved long back from the age old cultures/tradition that a guy/girl cant like/love any other girl/guy till they are forced into an arranged marriage. Not necessary that such marriages should last even nor am I saying that love marriages do but atleast they shouldnt be treated that its the worst thing you can do. Not agree for an arranged marriage. I dont think when a guy meets a girl or gets talking its necessarily going to lead into a relationship so how does he decide to stay away. You might be hearing parents telling you stay away from girls! I mean what kind of crap is that!? Now its the age where people say even if you like a girl its ok but please stay away from guys. How will this sound 'Mom and Dad I like a guy' and 'Mom Dad I like a girl'. Better sounding yeah! Atleast you are not going against the indian values in the society/neighbourhood. They'll probably treat you an outcast of you say that you are gay. Just coz your son/daughter being a hindu falls in love with a Muslim how does it make a difference!? Why is it such a big deal afterall. Arent they f*ckin humans. Why do educated people behave to keep their relatives and society happy. When such things happen in movies, everyone will nod and say 'Yes Yes this is also right' but being put in that situation they dont want to go through such decisions.Marriage/Love is not coming together of the whole family tree including relatives and their relatives.If it works that way good or else atleast keep your kids happy if thats what they want and not go against it. I have heard of people disowning their kids just coz they didnt agree for an arranged marriage or because they fell in love with a guy/girl of their choice. Pathetic!

Next post after Midsem!
Sayonara!:)

Conversation with the Dean

2010-09-23T22:49:00.004+05:30

When professors at UPES told us on the day of orientation that we are going to have a lot of free time but that will be spent in the library I totally didnt believe that. Even back in BE days teachers said similiar things but it so happened that I didnt know where the library was when I was asked to pick up a No Dues Certificate to get my final sem hall ticket. Now the scenario has changed so drastically that I find myself in the library every single day of the week,reminds me of the daily temple visits when I was a kid.

A class conversation :

Dean: So have you'll done the assignment?!

Class: ( Forced silence... and more silence )

Dean : So I presume that you'll havent done it so instead of taking the assignment once again back home, lets have it done right away. Please right down the MESH equations for Multi Stage Multi Component Distillation.

Class : ( Everyone's holding their pen and then looking to the next fellow sitting beside him for a clue )

I was about to the same and then I notice that Ankur is already looking into my notes expecting me to do some magic. We didnt remember Binary distillation so lets not even talk about something bigger than that.

( After ten minutes )

Dean : So tell me the MESH equations

Class : ( No one is speakin but still pretending to scribble something in their notes )

Dean : (Sigh) Ok so here are the notations for a start, I want you'll to bring the same on Saturday.We'll have class from 2-5. So when can we have the test ?!

Class : Sir, we have tests lined up for the coming week already.

Dean : If you'll are under the assumption that you'll are going to read over night and give the test you'll can forget about clearing the test. So we'll have it on Tuesday then.

Blah!

The whole excitement of new university,new place,hostel,etc has settled down and the crux of the whole scenario is finally here. Course is getting tougher by the day and can actually feel the tension building. Now I know for sure that it will be a rollercoaster ride ahead.

Mid sem exams coming up in October second week, all the more worry.

Sayonara! Next post after a while.

Bizzare Thermodynamics

2010-09-16T22:50:00.004+05:30

I have finally managed to find the time to sit down to blog.Regular days I dont get time or rather feel too lazy to sit and type, I am doing this now while I am suffering from Conjunctivitis. My eyes are like blood shot but then I gave them enough rest throughout the day and dont want to spend one more day doing nothing other than sleeping ( though thats something I totally enjoy ). So where did I leave you'll last ?!

Guess I was bragging about the new change in life, university, hostel,etc etc. Slowly things have pretty much settled down and its more or less like any other hostel when it comes to the food. Once your taste buds get used to it, then you dont enjoy the chicken/paneer. Everything tastes the same now and I have developed a complete aversion to the mess chicken for sure. The rules and the regulations in the hostel have eased out a lot,except the fact that you cant return late at night. Firstly they dont allow, secondly transportation to this part of the world is cut out after 7pm! I miss Bangalore all the more now, I miss seeing the hustle around, traffic all over, people screamin and ofcourse the easy access to junk food. The only good thing would be loss of weight here, not that I intended to but yet guess once you enter into hostel life thats bound to happen.

Coming to the classes,its pure magic. Somethings come out from nowhere on the board and then just disappear after some formulas are put in.Integration/Differentiation, they are here to trouble me all my life. Transport Phenomena subject is purely imaginary, thats what the sir says. Its upto you how you perceive things. The art of mugging has to be re-polished to conquer this subject. Dean walks into class every other day, speaks something related to the problems in the industry. We on the otherhand are clueless what he is talking bout, keep lookin at everyone around and its kinda amusing when you see blank looks all over. Lets say you ask him a doubt then he moves into more bizarre explanation, leading to even more shocked expressions. Best is yet to come, Advanced Chemical Engineering Thermodynamics. Its the 'Baap' of everything. There are certain things that you try to comprehend while you are being taught in class but here its like an unknown language. We can see him mime , thats all. Just today I realised that back in BMS, GN Rameshiah taught us Thermo. He didnt know jackshit nor taught us anything at the root level, end result more blinking at a Masters level. Petroleum and Math is something that can be handled, I dont want to mention about CRE for now.I'll have a dedicated post on that soon ;)

Lets leave all this aside, soon things are going to make sense like it always did. I can hear Mayank saying ' Hoga Rahul, hoga '. Thats the mantra that will be strictly followed for the next two years.

And Bangalore, I will see you in November for Diwali.

UPES , Dehradun

2010-08-14T10:30:00.005+05:30

Pic : University of Petroleum and Energy Studies, Dehradun.

Its been exactly two weeks since I got here ( Dehradun ) and I must say that this place is good. I do miss home and everythin/everyone in Blore but guess I should manage pretty well till I finish my course in Mtech Process Design Engineering. Will I be able to manage the course?! Thats a question , I dont have an answer yet but yes I have a hope I will.

Right now I am staying in Doon Scholars Boys Hostel in a place called Bidholi Village, its about 1km or maybe a lil more from college. Made a couple of good friends in the hostel and I am not too sure about the ones in college, I mind my own business when I get to the University.I'll try and keep it that way from now on. At times its a pain to walk in the noon because its very sunny and towards the early evenings it starts to drizzle, a lesser pain in the ass coz we hostelites here always carry an umbrella.We've been cautioned by the faculty members that the course is hectic and very tedious.We would probably cry and beg for a break once it starts in full swing, I am sure that will be the case as there are hardly a few who can actually recall the basic foundation knowledge in any subject related to their course.

Anyways, in due course of time I will be back to mention how hectic and do-able the course is.Until the next post..

My Flickr Photostream - For more Dehradun pics and Random Photography.

cheers.

Bye BANGALORE...

2010-07-26T22:30:00.007+05:30

So here I am finally feeling more than just upset that I have to leave my favourite city, Bangalore. All this while I was under the notion that I am more of the easy to adapt kind and will have nothing to be sad about when I take the flight this sunday morning to Dehradun. I was wrong, I am so wrong. I can now feel the vacuum within me and its such a bad feeling altogether. I dont know what I am going to miss the most when I say bye.Will it be my grandmum,friends,city or something more significant in my life than all this...

Bangalore will never be the same without that very significant factor.Crap! I have a lot to get used to when I get there. Once again the usual round of classes, attendance, new friends, usual tiffs with people, cramming from the thick books and maybe one major problem - the climate. Either I'll get used to it or else I'll forever crib about it and wait eagerly to be done with 2 years.I'll just be a lil optimistic and say one and a half years.I'll try and get my project somewhere in the south or atleast Mumbai.

I hate the uncertainity involved thinking about when I'll get back to Blore.During my schooling years, I never hated the gulf.I am not talking about any place in particular, I was used to that kind of lifestyle. When I had to leave,I had mixed feelings but in a way happy I am coming back to India finally.I liked chemistry right from 10th and then yes ofcourse I picked up Chemical.My intention was never to go back to the middle east again though there is maximum demand and paycheque.I like to stay where my roots are, if not in the city I am used to but at the least in India.I am scared to go back to the gulf,what if I get used to the job/life there or even worse what if I dont want to come back for a decade?! I dont even want to try to work there for 2 months.In a way I am very glad I didnt have to go back there but still unhappy about a few things.On a larger perspective I know this was the best I could have opted for and a decision that came through right on time. I dont know if this was bound to happen coz I dont believe in fate and that god decides things for you. I've always believed that if you can push things to move your way it will happen and like someone in the past said 'Work is worship' and not endless prayers without effort.

I want to say so much more right now but I am restricting myself,helpless maybe.I'll keep it for some later day in the far future.I'll miss coming back home to my grandmum,wish I didnt have to go this far.I'll miss few of my friends but guess thats something I can manage.I wont take names at the moment nor mention anyone in particular.

. . . . . I'll miss you :'(

For now so much, I dont know if I'll come back for a final post before I leave blore.If I dont, I will post next from my hostel in UPES, Dehradun.

PS : I almost forgot to mention, I got my Canon as a gift :).. Thank you very much! :D

- Canon SX 120 IS -

Sayonara!

Every dream is real..

2010-07-19T22:06:00.006+05:30

Dreams feel real while we're in them...It's only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange - I N C E P T I O N

One of the most hyped up movies to release this year, its finally out in theatres. People are flocking all over just to see this for all the hype.Has it lived up to the hype?! Yes, indeed. Even if you have some great expectations from this movie, you wont end up disappointed. you expect something and then you lose your mind once the movie starts.End of the show you will walk out of the theatre slightly lost, still having a few doubts here and there. Its all a part of the whole story and such feeling is totally normal.Pay attention right from the start and dont bother running to the stall to pick up your popcorn/pepsi.Once you lose the flow, you are as lost as the characters in the movie.

Very surprisingly there was absolute silence in the theatre.Everyone was so damn engrossed that no one actually spoke I think.After the final scene is over you will hear things like 'holy crap, that was really crazy!'. I said it myself.Christopher Nolan has once again proved that he is just Awesome! Having given the world hits like 'The Dark Knight' , 'The Prestige' & 'Memento'.

Leanardo Di Caprio, wonderful job! For once he didnt light a fag in the movie.

Overall Verdict : 4.9/5

Must watch, avoid talking throughout the movie.Even popcorn munching might be distractive,guess thats unavoidable.

In the meantime I watched a few more movies.

Eclipse : 3rd movie in the Twilight sage, boring! They should avoid making the 4th for sure.Robert Pattinson or whatever his name is cant act. Kirsten stewart's acting is something beyond my tolerance after this flick.Taylor Lautner does his part pretty ok.

Overall rating : 2/5 ( Avoid )

The Killers : Though the title sounds like its going to be an action flick,its more to do with comedy and drama. I really enjoyed this one,light hearted flick.If I had a tub of popcorn it would have been better but sadly I was home and watched it on my laptop.

Overall rating : 3.5/5

I Hate Luv Storys : After watching this you will really hate the fact that you spent money and watched it in the theatre,I thought Ajab Prem Ki Gajab Kahani was bad.This is another big flop.Sonam's voice is squeeky and Imran does his usual nonsense same like the one in Jaane tu ya Jaane na.Only such roles suit him ofcourse,he is bad in them too.

Overall rating : .75/5 ( Even if anyone pays you for watching this,avoid !! )

I am yet to watch Knight and Day, heard good reviews.Will watch it soon.
I'll get back to my camera survey for the time being.Until the next post ;)

Sayonara!

Canon..sigh!

2010-07-14T11:12:00.003+05:30

The redesign aspect now in blogger is fascinating! I finally settled down to how it looks now with the whole world being seen in the backdrop of the posts. I still havent learnt anything new to do on the template, I am yet to put up those blog mate links in the sidebar.Guess that will take some more time.When my posts come in so seldom, things like sidelinks will take a really long time.

I just got back from kerala yesterday, things were not that boring this time.Thanks to my cousin and the fact that I made it a point to carry my laptop.12 days went by pretty smooth.There are things that still cant be avoided when you go to kerala like the house visits,temple visits,irritating heat and sometimes even the rainfall throughout the day.I am glad that phase is over and I dont have to look into that side for maybe more than a year.Its like the gulf for me, I dont mind going there for a very short period but long stretch of holidays is complete NO.

On the other hand I am just getting things done prior to my trip to Doon.Uniform rules came as a surprise but guess that is something I can deal with.As far as I find some good friends and the course not too hectic, all should go well.I was just hoping that I have a digicam before I get there but soon I realised I am not getting one.Then I saw this loophole that instead of buying a new one I can take the family cam.For my bad luck we lost that in kerala and never managed to find it again.So all dreams shattered, neither the Canon nor the Cybershot.What am I going to do with a 3.2 mp phone cam in a place with so much scenic beauty?! Damnitt! My Canon..Sigh!

That means there wont be any photos taken while I am there. I just hate using the phone cam so I'll just have to learn to do without one.

I'll get going for now.
Next post soon...:P

BE.. Next on Agenda - M.Tech.

2010-06-20T22:43:00.002+05:30

Finally the change is here. When I keep seeing Facebook settings and layout being changed over a period of time , I was wondering why no one takes interest in the Blogging world to enable us to do some quick easy editing of template and not work on the basics of HTML to get things straight. So first applause to blogger team in getting the new template modifications.Mine is no more the old black template, I have given it a new look altogether.I dont think that is enough if my posts still take a long time to show up.

I am still waiting for my VTU results, hopefully good this time. Meanwhile there is good news, I have decided to go ahead and complete my masters instead of joining work right away.So yes, I have another two more years of college life.Just that this time there is a lot of change,its in UPES Dehradun.

Maybe once I get my ass there, I will have so much more to say on a daily basis.Wait did I say daily basis?! Nah.I'll be posting very often,more like on a weekly basis.I will try and include as many pics as possible.I still lack a damn camera! I keep having dreams of the Canon EOS1000D, that again is such a recurring dream and I am not getting any close to owning one.I will try and manage pics with my phone camera os slightly better Point and shoot Sony Cybershot which my parents use for family outings and occasions.I dont know if I'll get to keep it, I will request and see if it can be granted.

Until my next post,
Cheers!

With a hope..

2010-06-09T19:29:00.002+05:30

Life's pretty bizzare.For most part of the day I am so jobless with just the project work to complete.Still undecided about what I want, if my BE degree will do me good in the coming years.If an Mtech I want to pursue will help me realise the worth someday.I dont know if I am willing to work or I rather go for higher studies.I know that I want to stick in India,which I am very sure off.I wouldnt mind doing my higher studies abroad but that again comes with quite a few complications starting with finances.I am not very keen on taking a loan of say 20 odd lacs and go abroad just to return a few years later with maybe a good enough job.Then again a few more years will go in repaying the huge amount plus the interest.Why start life with a liability? I am happy if I can manage a post graduate degree by spending only a percentage of what I would have to if I decide to go abroad.

End of the day I am just travelling in a path guided by dad and well wishers with a hope that soon I will be able to decide what I actually want from life.Is it just another rat race to reach a particular salary mark?! Will at the end of the day I be happy with my job or will I just end up being happy with the salary?! There's always this parallel dream of having the good things in life,maybe some added luxury somwhere in the form of a good car,house,etc.No wonder these elders say that first you get all the degree's you can and then start off with your job.Few years down the lane when you get sick and tired you might want to do something else.Maybe just travel around or develop a hobby that eventually turns out to be your passion.

I'll take an example of a friend I know from college,he was my senior.All he wanted to do was talk and then his passion for rock music.Not academically very brilliant but still the other day I saw his pics and his effort that has gone into bringing Lamb of God to Bangalore! Thats passion.I dont know if his work is related to advertising and media but I know he is happy at the end of the day.How many of us actually do what we want than just the usual path taken like Engineering,Medicine,CA's,etc. I cant think of too many options but I am sure you are getting what I am trying to tell.

I thought the movie '3 Idiots' was totally apt for our generation where the race is always to become an engineer and then earn big bucks.I dont think its still earning luxury or living large at the end of the day, its just being safe.You know if you have that tag of a BE you will get job eventually and it will benefit you somewhere someday.

In a hope that I will figure out the way I want life to be in the coming years...

End of an Era..

2010-06-07T12:37:00.002+05:30

Finally I am done with engineering,well almost I can say.I have my project evaluation on the 14th,after that I am done with the undergraduate course atleast.Whats going to happen next?! I have no clue absolutely.Something should come through which once again I am unaware of it as I dont make any decisions.

Right now I am just concentrating on how best I can while away time and relax.My dreams of a camera/car are totally shattered for obvious reasons.This time too I am not willing to give my driving test.What do I give it for!? I might as well give it when I can buy a car on my own.

I am actually mad bout a lot of things! Anyways I'll stick to a promise I made to myself from now on.

Until the next post,
sayonara.

Facebook Account Hacked!

2010-05-21T23:36:00.002+05:30

I dont know if this is what they call Phishing Scam because Facebook keeps intimating me saying it is some scam like that or I dont even know if its hacked.As far as I can recall I havent meddled with the password settings nor made any changes whatsoever.

Whatever be the case, I cant get thru my facebook account anymore.I got so bloody jacked! I am hoping the account just remains inactive throughout and in the meantime I'll spread word that I am not on that social networking site anymore.I wonder why such things keep happening only to me? This is the second time its happening and now I am sick of this nonsense.

I'll just keep away from social networking sites from now on till the need arises someday in the future and if I am really keen on it.

Spread word.

Thank you.

VW - Das Auto !

2010-05-18T00:10:00.006+05:30

Its past 12 o clock and I have been trying to make sense of the Pilot plant subject portion.A few parts did make sense and then now nothing seems to be going into my head so instead of calling it an early night I came up here not deciding what to post at all.

So vaguely I'll start off by saying that my project is finally coming to an end. All that mad running around to CPRI is finally paying off and my project has turned out pretty well so far.Thankfully we dont have to work on the report now, we can do it after the external theory exams.Thats a sigh of relief esp when the exams are just more than a week away.As always the preparations have just begun after running around for the last set of internals.

I dont know if I am looking forward to the time after the exams,initially I was happy all this is finally over but now I am not too sure if I am happy with it.I think I have roughly two months off till I think of doing something else which is still very uncertain.

Now I'll move on to something I've been very fascinated bout - The new Volkswagon Polo in India.It was launched a few months back and yet most people are not aware of the brand value.Still people stick to the very old Maruti and Hyundai when polo costs nothing more than what they cost.It lies in the same segment and offers the same mileage as the Ritz.Ritz offers a 21kmpl and Polo 22kmpl for a Diesel engine.Ritz diesel costs in the range of 4.63 lac to 5.20 lac depending on those LDI,VDI versions.Polo starts at 5.32lac and goes upto 6.7lac.When you consider buying the Swift fully loaded you end up paying a little more than 6lac and then even the Hynudai I20 goes more than 7lac for a fully loaded diesel version.Why chose i20 when you have Polo! There is a difference ofcourse here in Polo, the German Engineering involved.You pay for perfection at the end of the day.

Das Auto.German Engineering.Now Made in India.

I'll take leave now as its past 1 I guess.Rest soon.Cheers!

Keep talking..

2010-05-06T22:44:00.004+05:30

I apologize for not having written here in a while.I really havent had the time to do so and recently when I came back to the 'New post' page I totally forgot what I wanted to say so I shut the window right away.

Right now I can say I am almost an engineer,I am not very sure what I have learnt all these four years and if they will actually benefit me in the coming years.I hope they do,even if its in the smallest possible way.This is officially the last week of engineering, as we have our farewell on the 10th of May.After that I am hoping classes wouldn be held.Project and seminar itself is bad enough to chew my brains.From what I last spoke to my project mate Suma,she told me our project will be completed by this weekend.Phew! Thats a lot of relief but then again I am sure I'll have to read up on everything possible and start typing out the report as soon as possible.Every damn thing looks so crammed up in the coming week, I have no idea as to how much is actually possible.3rd round of internals too are being held around the same time.Its pure madness and I am already dreading the start of next week.

I thank all my friends for making these 4 years bearable in BMS.For all the fun times.I will take only a few names starting with the hostelites ( IH )

Karan,Sandeep,Pankaj,Ann,Payal,Radhika,Leroy,Shahnawaz,Abidi,Samad,Rahul Radhakrishnan,Rami

And now to a few more..

Varun,Shruthi D,Rita,Hemanth,Prajwal,Shiva,Abhishek,Mayank,Cheta(Ankit) and Vivek.

Salaam Bombay!

2010-04-17T21:12:00.002+05:30

Mumbai..Hey Ganpat chal..

So yes finally to account for the 50 marks in the sylabbus my department has painfully organised a trip to Mumbai ONGC.As they took a lot of effort they have made it cumpulsory to go for the trip and even if anyone already has a report to submit will not be considered.They will be marked zero.There is no doubt that the dept is not fair but like they care.We keep going to the Computer lab every 3 weeks or so for the staff upraisal/staff evaluation.No matter how harsh we are in the grading they still dont want to change their damn approach to the students.I am sure there is only one or two sir's who gets a positive feedback from we students.Apparently few have negative markings,I am not surprised.I dont think anyone is as a matter of fact.

I'll come back to the trip topic,talking about the department is pointless.A group of about 48 accompanied by a departement faculty will be leaving to Mumbai on the 20th of this month.Though the main concern was on the ONGC training I really doubt what they will be able to train us in esp considering we are too many to be handled in a few hours.Coming to the brighter part of the trip is the whole fun journey and the madness.I am looking forward to this final trip of engineering :) Only thing I will miss is having a damn camera for myself.Its probably the only thing I want so badly.Canon EOS1000D / Nikon D3000 is still a dream till I start working.Wish I could just win a lottery someday and pick it up asap.I am still debating to make up my mind on one of them.Nikon is slightly priced more than the Canon.The wait is getting longer..

Meanwhile engineering is coming to an end,I am hoping the end is good.Apparently we have the graduation day coming up in the first week of May,thats the next thing I am looking forward to.Things will be really quick after that and soon I will be writing the exams starting from May 26th.Best part is that this time there is no study leave even,the last working day is May 22nd. Kaise Hoga ?!

After watching Mumbai Indians literally raping the Bangalore Royal Challengers, I am not keeping my hopes high on RCB! I am sure they will fail eventually.Kolkata Knight Riders,another team that I have been offering my support has failed tremendously over the last two seasons.Maybe that will continue this season as well, bloody bad luck! I pity SRK,once he disowns the team I shall stick to RCB.Kochi IPL team controversy is making waves even before they could start playing next year.Wonder who will be the brand ambassador,probably one of the two oldies - Mammooty and Mohanlal.They must consider John Abraham and Asin too though they dont have that much fan following in comparison to Lal and Mammooty.

Travel and Living show ' Living with a superstar - SRK ' is coming to their series end soon and with that I wont have anything to watch on tv.This week I missed the episode on account of my hectic project work at CPRI.It totally slipped my mind,all thanks to Youtube I watched it today and now I am in peace.

I'll take leave for now,this post is a part of my 15 min break from Internals study.I was too bored to continue so thought I'll come up here for a change!

Sayonara!

Comfortably Numb

2010-03-23T00:56:00.003+05:30

I have been thinking about how much life has changed during my years in the city.Right from being a Gulf return teenager to now being 22 and reaching the very end of engineering.Lot of things have changed over time.There used to be a point when I used to play cricket all day long,even wait for that 10 minute break in school skip lunch just so that I could run to the ground to play.I used to write poems,I kept that book alive till my second year engineering after which I burnt it.Maybe coz it had too many emotions involved,I had decided to let go off it finally.I had this habit of writing in my personal diary right from 8th grade.nothing was too personal during that phase.It got very personal when I was in 11th/12th,I always enjoyed writing.I have always been a very non responsive person,I keep a few of my thoughts to myself.It helps at times and sometimes I get very frustrated but yeah I would prefer keeping them within.I am not an open book,I used to be some point of time.I used to tell everyone everything about me.Maybe I have learnt to shut up,when I realise that there is no necessity involved I might as well push that thought down than bring it up.My diary used to be my trash can,I used to dump every single emotion and feeling I had.I used to go back to reading those pages a few months down the lane and still be able to relive that moment.

I totally stopped writing my diary,sometimes I feel its coz I dont have time.Maybe I stopped making time for it or maybe I dont want to write personal stuff anymore.Now I hide my thoughts from the diary even.Am just kidding,I dont feel that need/connection anymore when I pen down my thoughts.I'v had an individual even read my entire diary.Its the kinda feeling that you dont enjoy after sometime.I realised that later and then I totally disliked the fact that someone even talks/touches my diary.One fine day I burnt all my diaries and every other hand written stuff I kept safe in my drawer.

I didnt think of writing a post but somewhere along I started to type.

Coming to my blog history,I had my first blog in 11th.My mum always thought that I waste a lot of time on my blog,I actually used to.I had everything changed in the template and made a lot of changes in the html coding.I had things right from a chat box,weekly video,flickr stream,scrolling words on the page in a random fashion.I still stick to the promise I made when I started my first,I will continue blogging.

There is always a small part of me I blog once in a while,these are the things I dont discuss/want to discuss.

...And like always, 'There is a little part of me I keep to myself,I prefer it that way'.

Meanwhile let me see what I have been upto..

1.Still following SRK's tweets on Twitter,thats the only thing I do on twitter.
2.Project work going on but still a lot of confusion.
3.I am yet to start working on the seminar topic,seminar due on April 8th.

Utilization of time : While I had to wait for my phone to charge,I thought I might as well blog.

<<< You are today where your thoughts have brought you; you will be tomorrow where your thoughts take you. >>>
- James Allen

Biding my Time..

2010-03-16T22:48:00.010+05:30

The excitement to be in Goa this month end is 'Intense'.I think everyone has that on their minds from the past couple of days,the pain is to wait for another two weeks to see it happen.I am more than just excited to be making this trip the second time in my engineering life,BMS didnt turn out to be a boring journey I must say!

I am no more a hostelite,I used to be a part of the International Hostel BMS.Though I started staying out with my grandmum at my own place on airport road I used to still visit that place.Lot of fond memories and a few great friends,I shall not take names though.So yes, I finally gave up my room in the hostel.I dont think I will go back to staying there anymore even for a night.I wont say anymore,I might just get a little emotional.I miss a few friends..

Coming back to the list of things I want to do/things I want.

GOA

If I am in India, I would like to have this yearly getaway to Goa either to attend the New year Sunburn or maybe Christmas!

Wildlife in Africa

I used to love watching the Animal planet and the National Geographic channel all the time.My dad used to hate the fact that I watch programmes featuring snakes.Me and my bro always enjoyed any show related to Wildlife.So this goes in my list too,trip to Africa someday in the future just for the sake of wildlife! Well before going for this trip I want to get my Canon EOS 1000D / Nikon D3000. I am not making the trip otherwise.Wildlife photography - Bliss!

RayBan Shades

This particular type of shades from Rayban, I have been wanting this from a really long time.I see it very rarely and everytime I do I pick it up,try them on and keep it back telling myself ' Someday I will come back for this '.

Underwater Sea diving

I dont know if I'll ever do this or maybe I might just back out at the last minute.I dont know swimming but the interest to see marine life that close is too much.Maybe I will try this if I gather enough courage at that moment of time.

Thats it for now.
Internals day after,so rest laters! :)

Goodnight!

Fortnight update - I

2010-03-14T23:51:00.004+05:30

IPL fever is back once again.I dont know if it holds the same hype as it did last year.I havent watched one match this season so I am guessing I can do without it.Last time I watched most of the matches,had a few silly bets,went to the Koramangala indoor stadium to watch the finals on the big screen.This time,I dont feel the same.I dont favour any particular team but I really hope Kolkata knight riders give some good comeback.After all the effort and pain SRK has put/gone thru it would be nice to see them reach finals for his sake alone.I am okay with anything.I can imagine the scene back in the bms hostel.Throughout the match there will be betting and beers! Thats all that happens throughout the ipl season,the nearby bars make money and individual pockets turn inside out! I am glad I am not part of the hostel madness anymore.Phew!

I havent had a relief in my daily schedule but yet I make time now to check on my small fish tank and make sure I watch Travel and Living with a Superstar - Shahrukh Khan every friday at 9pm.Thats the only time I watch tv in a week.I never go near the tv otherwise and I am very sure that after 7 weeks once the series is over I will not go back to watching tv again.It doesnt interest me these days especially when I can watch movies on the laptop.

8th semester project is still a pain in the ass.Whoever told me 8th sem is easy, seriously what were you thinking?! That you have just 4 subjects instead of 8 or that you have to attend classes only thrice a week?! Which part of the last semester is good?! The only thing I can think of right now is the proposed Goa trip happening with classmates.Nothing else is interesting and the much awaited BMS fest too wont be worth the wait.I think we had a set of great seniors who took the Utsav fest seriously.For now, let Utsav happen in bangalore and I will go back to re-live Goa.

Last time I returned from Goa, I always had the thought that it must happen again.There is something about that place that keeps playing in your head.It maybe the calm beaches,the narrow roads that lead to the beaches,the crowd,the shacks,etc.Few years later I want to get up one morning,pick up a handful of friends and say 'We are going to Goa' , total Dil Chahtha hai style.Damn but I dont have a Mercedes convertible,like the one Aamir khan drove! I'll manage with some car then.

If I had more than 24 hours a day, I would really appreciate that at this point of time.I wanted to re-start my habit of reading but I still havent made time for that.I pick up a newspaper in the morning and then manage to read it throughout the day in the canteen/class/bus journeys.I find the Economic times and the Financial Chronicle more interesting to read than the Times of India.Few classmates thought that part was a little weird.Maybe I am too tired going thru pages of Bangalore times page 3 parties that I totally gave up on reading the main newspaper as well.I have this book by title 'Chicken Soup',its a set of short stories.I am yet to start on that,right now I'll just finish the Mens health magazine I picked up last week.

I watched this tamil movie at home.
Vinaythaandi Varuvaya,sweet movie! Something toally different,the climax I thought was great.Not the usual predicted ending,it was a great watch.
I was told that is was way better than Varaanam Ayiram.I dont think so but yeah I would rate this movie a decent 4/5.AR Rahman music definitely adds to the credit!

I'll post maybe after I am done with my internals and prior to Goa trip.
Till then , sayonara!

Turning 22..

2010-02-28T23:39:00.002+05:30

So here I am typing out the first post after I turned 22 ( Feb 24th ). Thanks to all those who wished and were there for the cake cutting at sharp 12.Actually I have never cut a cake at 12 o clock.First year in hostel I was too worried bout the seniors kicking my butt black and blue so I managed to escape that scene with some excuse or I guess I went back to my granny's.So this was something very special indeed for me to remember as the only birthday I have cut cake at 12.I so sound like an Oldie now.

Once again I'v had a hectic week though the project hasnt started full fledged as yet,I can feel the work load kicking in.

I have more to say but right now I have to get back to the Damn project, I will come back over the weekend for sure.
Till then,
Sayonara

When the Tigers broke free..

2010-02-18T22:32:00.014+05:30

As promised in the previous post I am back, maybe it took time to return though.My net had issues opening blogger and gmail over the past couple of days so I kept delaying my post even.

I remember this song by Pink Floyd, ' When the tigers broke free '.

Aircell's initiative of working on the tiger awareness is really great.I am hoping something can be done as its already high time.We just have 1411 tigers left.In a hope to see more of them in the years to come, I will proceed with my post for the day...

So lets see, I guess the Shiv Sena / Srk controversy has taken a back seat, now that he realised he cant do shit.I still dont understand why people cant take/keep things simple and straight.He wanted Pakistani players to play in the forthcoming IPL.Now whats wrong in that.They are just players, they are not the Al-Qaeda( If thats the right spelling ) If they have so much anger in them about Pakistan and its people why react against someone in India who just had an opinion related to a game enjoyed by a global audience?! Such brainless people in the country, they just take things in the wrong sense,blow it out of proportion and end of the whole fiasco no gain at all.Upset a lot of people for their show of stupidity.I dont give a shit to these people, I'll watch the movie whatever happens.

Another bunch of jackasses in Bangalore wanted to spoil Valentines day.They feel its not part of our culture and stuff like that.They want only married people sitting together as a couple and they warned everyone around that they would get two individuals married if found hanging around outside in the city.Even after being beaten black and blue by the youth congress, Muthalik still stood by his word.Then again he couldn do shit around.

Bangalore maybe one of the hottest cities in India soon, the weather now is unbearable.I wonder how its going to be in April.There is absolutely no point taking bath and using the perfume.In maybe an hour or so,its all back to sweat and feeling yuck overall.

Yes, I was finally making a list of things I want to have/places to visit/etc. I am done with it yet but I'll give a start to it with this post.Probably have an extension to it in the future posts.FYI Points mentioned below may not necessarily be part of this year's list( I dont have that kinda list ).Its just an overall thing.

1.Rottweiler

He is going to be my most valued possession in the future.

2.Canon EOS 1000D

I've been dying to own this from a long time,its just taking too long.I must try my hand at lotteries soon.

3.New Zealand

Dont ask me why I have such a fascination for this place.If I get a chance to go there I am taking it with no second thoughts.

4. Doberman

I totally love this breed and in remembrance of my previous doberman, Spike.

5.Corbett National Park

This is one place I want to go soon, am hoping its going to be one of the first trips I make once I start working.Shit, I need to get the Canon before I make this trip.

For now I will give a stop to my list,will continue soon when I have the time to sit like this.

Oh yes,my resolution for this year and maybe for a couple of years down the lane.I speak too much and the way I say things,unintentionally might not sound acceptable.I'll go back to keeping a part of my thoughts to myself.

I am complicated,I am weird and I'd like to keep a few things to myself from now on.

Until the next post :)

Cheers.

In a hope..

2010-02-09T22:59:00.001+05:30

So here I am after a really long break.I had planned to do a lot of things during my semester break and I havent done any.I eventually dropped out the plan of making my list of new year resolutions/things I want/to do in the coming year.I didnt find the time to even finish a 200 page novel I have been holding on to for months now.Thats how preoccupied I am but if you ask me to list out things that keep me busy throughout the day,its the usual engineering student life and a little bit more of say a tv series(Friends/Big Bang).

Whats wrong with me?! I have absolutely no time for myself,to have a relaxed day with no where to run to/things to do/college,etc.I actually had a pretty relaxed time in Muscat and then when I had that period of time off I totally forgot that I have to make my list/blog/finish my novel.BLAH! I was just lazying around looking at the two new parrots at home,gold fishes in the aquarium,playing chess with my 13 year old brother.I am glad I taught him how to play and now he is extremely good for a 13 year old.Was surprised see him play a few games with me,the way he took things so quickly out of my hands.
Proud of him,atleast I can still play my favourite indoor game years down the lane at home with him.

Oh yes,I started with this post to mention about Shahrukh khan coming to Bangalore for a global quiz organised by IIPM.I didnt care bout the quiz but yes my long time wish of seeing him live came true last evening at the Koramangala indoor stadium.A day I'll never forget - 8th February.Now that this has happened once,I am in a hope it will happen once more in the years to come.

I am hoping to post more often,I am hoping to read more.In a way they could be related.

PS: Option of uploading pictures side by side not working on blogger.Something really wrong,actually even my phone/net acting a little cranky today.

So for the time being,this is all I got to say.

I'll get back soon.
Cheers.

Departure..

2010-01-06T01:22:00.003+05:30

First things first, Happy new year. I dont know if this year is gonna be a happy one or no but then again I like having some hopes. So right now I am sitting at the Blore international airport making use of their limited one hour wireless.Finally I just have one more semester to go before I can call myself an engineer.Blah.I dont know if thats a relief but I am glad 4 years of this journey is coming to an end.

Maybe because I was born in blore or maybe the good times I have had here.Everytime I leave this place, I am sad. Even if its for a week for my yearly trip to kerala or presently my trip to muscat I am never in my high spirits.The moment I reach my next destination I have started my countdown to be back in blore.Once I am done with my engineering,if at all I am not in blore I wonder how I'll feel.

I was supposed to be posting earlier with my list of new year resolutions/thing I want/to do,etc.Just when it was new year eve I fell sick,viral fever.I still dont have my list,I dont know if I'll get the time to make one this month.I'll have it ready once I am back in blore on the 2nd.

Its time for check in so I'll take leave now.

Miss you blore very much fr a lot of reasons.

Orkut Jerk!

2009-12-20T23:36:00.003+05:30

Half way through the Vtu War and now I cant wait to be done with the rest.I dont recall when I was actually free last.When did I go for a movie or had a chilled out time?! Whoa, I cant seem to recall at all.Arrghh, vtu really has its effect!

So how did the exams go so far?! No,I am neither a nerd or really bothered bout explaining how they were.I'll talk bout something else.

New year is just round the corner and like always I am trying to make a new list of resolutions.Ofcourse all of it I cant keep upto,but the list part I will do.I am going to even make a list of things I want/want to do the coming year/years etc. I am still working on it,so far just got some two points.So whenever it has enough points I'll put it up.

Oh yes now coming back to the topic.Some Ass$%&* has made an Orkut profile with the same display pic I have on my blog.My cousin calls me one evening to tell me that she has accepted my friend request n Orkut,a Social networking site.I used to be on that site years ago but got rid of it so this news was something! I went ahead to check the profile using my Cousin's id.Best part is that he did have my pic as his display picture and had 83 friends then! I went through the list of his friends, I didnt know even one guy/girl in that list.Totally random ppl.I ran a search on google images and realised that he got the pic from google images as my blog is public.At first, I thought I'll report abuse but then I thought let him do what he wants.He cant get hold of any more pics and I cant run behind some ass who is that jobless.So I deleted him from my cousin's profile and asked her not to accept any more requests from him.Smart and desperate he is,he sent her a couple of requests after that repeatedly.Such a #$%*head!

My condolences to Sunil's family and friends.May his soul rest in peace.We miss you.

Computer Lab :)

2009-12-05T22:15:00.003+05:30

Computer Programming and Simulation Lab
(7th Semester VTU war)

I just managed to get the easiest program to execute.I was still not very sure of getting the output.I never intended to while I was mugging them.Anyways as I got the easiest of the lot(Pure LUCK!), I thought I'll try to execute it.It didnt happen and I called ma'am to ask her what could possibly be the problem.

Ma'am: ' Rahul,you are very lucky today! Pls check the loop once again.

I thought for a while.went thru the program once again.I definitely couldn figure out anything to do with the looping statements.I called the external guy next.I dont recall his name but he was from RV.He reminded me of Selvi's brother,his actions and speech were so similiar to hers.BTW, Selvi is the lady who teaches Food Technology.

Rv chap: 'Check the loop,your program is right'
Myself: (You idiot,I dont know jackshit about C or C++) 'Sir, I checked but I dont know where is the mistake.

He looked into the monitor for a while and then he made a correction.He asked me to execute after that.It worked,I got the Damn Output and that means I am sure to pass.

Rv chap: 'Come for Viva.'

Myself: (Prepared my viva-smile)

Ma'am: 'Rahul hates programs sir.He is a very bright student but doesnt put his complete effort.Today he is a very lucky boy to get this program.

Rv chap: 'Rajan,is she right?!'

Myself: (Smiling still)' Yes sir.I have tried my level best to understand programming right from 11th std.I havent and I really dont like the subject.'

Rv chap: 'Its great that you can actually mug the programs and write in paper without a scratch'.

Myself: (Still smiling even though my jaws are aching now,its been ten minutes)

Rv Chap: Carry on with your Simulation.

I finished my simulation in another an hour or so.I really didnt care if I didnt have the right values for simulation.I was very happy that I am going to get away with this lab anyways.

Myself: 'I am done Ma'am'.'
Ma'am: 'You can tell goodbye to this lab and hopefully programming for life,Rahul'
Myself: 'Thank you very much Ma'am.'

Curtains down!:)

My luv since a long time...

2009-11-24T21:33:00.008+05:30

Let me recall the first time I actually started liking dogs.I think I was bout 6-7 years old when I first met Gypsy.He was my uncle's neighbour's dog and I used to keep seeing this pomeranian barking and running around.I used to enjoy watching him play and gradually I went ahead to ask the aunty if I can touch him and play with him.He turned out to be friendly,I am sure if he wasnt then I wouldn have gone near any other dog.i used to find excuses to go to my aunt's place just so that I can jump into my neighbour's compound to go meet gypsy.
Time passed and one day I heard that he died, I was in Saudi then.

It was always a dream to own a dog of my own and take care of it.It was in 11th standard that I finally got home a 35 day old Dobermann Pinscher.He was red and tan,not the usual black and tan.I had named him Spike and he was the best.He was very obedient and damn cute.Unfortunately I dont have any pics of him.When he was 4 months old he started to get a little on the ferocious side.Even if my mom or grandmum shouts at him he used to snarl back and get into the attacking position.I had to get down from my room to make him listen or to even tie him up.It was getting difficult when he refused to shit/piss outside when I used to take him out for a walk.He had to do it in the terrace.His aggressiveness was not very welcome esp when talks like if I am not at home grandma wont be able to handle him.He used to bark non stop if guests were at home even when he was tied up in the terrace.His senses were that sharp,ofcourse he is a Doberman! One day with great difficulty and pain we decided to give him away to a breeder.It was a very emotional day and even my grandmum held him with tears rolling down.We gave him away and that day itself we thought we'll bring home a more mature dog that can be handled.

Me and My mum fell in luv with a very obedient Golden Retriever.He was about 1 year old and totally trained.He was no replacement to Spike but we brought him home.He was a great dog.He would do his business only if he is taken out for a walk,which lead to the next problem.I had horrible timings back in Puc,I used to leave home at 6 and return at 6.Till then he wouldnt dirty anywhere.I was making it very uncomfortable for him to hold his nature calls for a straight 12 hours.I couldnt do anythin to my timings and there was no one at home one particular week.I was very upset and didnt want him to suffer in this manner.I gave him away too and requested the breeder to place him in a good home.I didnt want anything in return.Bruno,he was called.Wish I didnt have to give him off that day.I really wish I hadnt done that.Its been a regret.

Miss you Bruno..

That day I decided that I will own a dog when I have the time for it.I will make time for it when I am settled in my job.I feel really helpless when I go for these dog shows and cant bring a pup home.If I bring home a dog I want to give it my time.

I am particularly in luv with Rottweilers and Dobermanns.Boxers too,there is something bout these tail-less dogs.

(Pic: With the Dobermann Pinscher)

I have been in luv with the Rottweiler breed for 5-6 years now and thats going to be the dog I will pick up one day even if I have to pay 30k.The wait will be long but I will pick up a Rottweiler pup once I am settled in life.

(PIc : Rottweiler )

Post Internals.

2009-11-20T00:19:00.005+05:30

I havent had the bloody time to spare for a post from a long time.After multiple reminders on my phone I thought I'll do it soon after my 3rd round of internals.Unlike previous semesters this time for once I am glad about the way the whole internals season.Everything went as per plan - the last minute notes,group discussions,etc.

During Process Integration test:

Scene - Test just started and I am still reading through the questions. Samitha. our HOD walks in.

The next moment I knew she will call out my name.She has this major dislike and I knew that she will definitely try to irritate me.

HOD: 'Rajan,pls cum to the first bench' (First try to irritate)
Me: (I just nodded)

After 5 minutes she switches off the fan

Me: 'Ma'am can I have the fan switched on,pls' ( I made sure I squeezed in that word pls)
HOD: 'No,its pleasant out here.There is no requirement of the fan,you continue writing. (Second try to irritate)

After 15 minutes,she is just walking around in the corridor and decided to drop in yet again just to irritate.

HOD:'Rahul,pls sit properly'
(And yes success,final irritation)

Bloody hell I have been quietly sitting there right from the start and still she will find ways to nudge me for something or the other.

Oh yes, I forgot one more time she wanted to irritate. I am just done with that test and I walk out to check the notice board.There she popped out again,god knows from where.

HOD:'Rahul Rajan,pls leave the dept.Your friends will finish and come down'

Arrggh..So bloody irritating!

Now the grind is finally over and the struggle to finish studying for the coming up exams is gonna be hell esp now that it is winter.The bed is so inviting for a long 12 hours sleep.

I dont get the freaking time for anything at all and how does time pass by, I have no clue! Its just the same thing day in and day out.I am eagerly waiting to be done with college,get out of this whole monotonous daily routine of going to college,attending classes,labs,records,assignments,internals,etc.I want a change and I am hoping it is a good one by the time I am done next june.

I wanted to review the novel I picked up months ago but am sure now I wont have the time to do esp when I am flipping thru ten pages during the morning Crapping session.I am still struggling to finish it, I think I am half way through it. FYI the novel is called 'Of course I still love you till..I find someone better'.The author is some ex student of DCE(Delhi college of engineering), I dont recall his name.Maybe next time.

Meanwhile I have finally got my hands on the Knight Rider series with the Ford Mustang GT500.I used to watch it when I was a kid,guess it was a Corvette then.I totally loved cars from that day! Once again I dont get time to watch so now I club it while I am having my dinner or sunday lunch.I stopped watching the tv and now finish one episode of the famous car series daily.

I did watch two episodes of Jonathon Miller's - A brief history of Disbelief.I will feature about it in a post sometime later when I have time on my hands.

Various other things have been in my head and mind is never in peace.I am trying not to get worked up about things and just letting it be or even letting it go.I was never this way before,used to be the very carefree kind.It did affect my studies and now when I finally got hold of my studies I want to have the old me back.Rest of the time atleast.I am working on it and it might take a while.

Want to have that one calm late evening on the beach.Probably listen to the track 'Knocking on heavens door'.This is going to take a few years though.I must learn the guitar by then.Will play and sing for just myself.Definitely want to be alone then with no hazzles in life or tension.Hate handling pressure or take tension about anything.

For the old me,later than never.

Sayonara

Views on Religion

2009-11-06T21:22:00.010+05:30

Recently I was going through my cousin's blog and I came across a very strong post. The post was titled 'Ridiculously religious'.Atleast he is sure he believes in god and hope he exists. I have been thinking about the existence of god for years now and everytime when people ask me if I believe in god I really didnt know what to say.There are times I have said yes and sometimes I have said no,not very sure of what I was saying every single time.What came in my mind then, I let it out in words if I really had to answer anyone's question.The next likely question would be 'Why dont you believe in god?!'.That's where I used to get stuck,I didnt have any answer then nor do I have an answer now.Yes definitely there are Holy books from each and every religion that says God exists. So how many God's really do exist?! Each one for every religion?! The fact there is only one god makes a lot of sense when you keep hearing people say 'The All Mighty'.

Back in my school days in Saudi there were verses of Quran being recited as a part of the morning assembly.We used to always have a translation to the original verse in english.It always said 'In the name of the all mighty,the most gracious,the most merciful'.I dont know what the Quran says but atleast they believe there is an all mighty power.There is some sense in Islam.Everyone who is a muslim believes in Allah.

Once again back in Saudi there were these prayer groups,christians.Some made lot of noise whereas some were the silent praying kinds.Here nothing makes sense,there are different groups! People who believe in Jesus,those who dont,those who believe in god knows what,those who wear jewellery,etc.I failed to understand all this over years and over time I have found most beliefs really ridiculous! Oh yes,once for easter I had gone to this church(more or less like a huge workshop converted to church), I had been forced to go for it.It was a couple of years back,I really didnt gain anything from going there than just raising hands up in the air and shouting out loud 'Alleluya!'.No idea what that meant but yes I found it weird and I decided that I would never go to such a church again.I do find a lot of peace going to the Infant jesus church in Blore,its quiet and its very relaxing.

Coming to hinduism,I am still very clueless about different gods, god names, their incarnations, their respective stories,etc. Its humanly not possible to keep track of all this. I used to enjoy watching the Mahabharatha but still the details very hazy.

Its been a few years now that I have been analysing things on my own.I dont believe anything just coz its been done in the world.Maybe its all true,maybe partly is and maybe nothing at all.I dont know.I used to think I am an Atheist at some point of time i.e I dont believe in the existence of God.Later I thought that it was too strong a term when I still do things I am supposed to/asked to like going to a temple,pray for a few seconds in the Puja room on the considered auspicious days.I dont have a problem doing such things nor really mind them.Atleast there is nothing wrong in all this,I cant sit and explain myself to everyone.Instead I just do things that are supposed to be done, it will definitely avoid people from considering me a social outcast or against god or anything stupid like that! It gives me some kind of peace being in specific temples like ISCON and the Shiva temple in blore.Its calm and there is something about the place.

There are days I go alone to a temple just coz I want to and not coz I have been asked to.I dont like being told anything more than once.I take a long walk,sit on the temple floors listening to the bhajans playing,people sitting with their eyes closed lost in thoughts or prayers,etc.Its very refreshing once in a while.

I am an Agnostic.

(An agnostic does not deny the existence of God and heaven but holds that one cannot know for certain whether or not they exist)

Afterall I am a science student,I need experimental proof.

Disclaimer: If I have hurt anyone's feelings/emotions/beliefs,it was not intended and I apologize for the same.

Just dropped by

2009-11-01T00:54:00.002+05:30

I dont remember when was my last post,think its been a while.I always have in mind that I have a post to put up but then due to lack of time I always forget bout it at the end of the day.So now I have conveniently pushed it to this weekend.Lot of things in my to do list havent been done yet and all I have is a sunday to do them.Right from the simplest being cutting my nails.Its been a week since its set as a reminder on my phone and still at the end of the day I havent managed to spare 5 minutes for it.

I am in no mood to review the movies seen over the past two weeks but yes i can definitely mention them.Orphan(Thriller - 4/5),All the best(Stopped watchin in 15mins - Pathetic nonsense) and London dreams(Great storyline - 3.5/5).I loved Michael Jackson's 'This Is it' though.He is truly a legend.If the London concert ever happened,it would have been the BEST performance on stage world would have ever seen! MJ's music will live on forever.

Rumours once again about the VTU exams being postponed by a week.They do this postponing shit every bloody year.I dont understand then why the hell do they send an exam timetable to all colleges by the start of the semester.I am hoping the dates dont shift and remain the same as of the first notice.

Its been a long while since I have been having this particular interest for photography in me.I never got the chance to exploit it with a professional camera.I dont like the mini slim ones you get, be it 10 or 12 megapixels - the ones that are usually meant for picnics,get togethers,etc.Today I fell in luv with my cousin's camera.Nikon D90,that says it all.Guess it was a 12.9mp digital camera.Oh the feel of it was remarkable! Its on my Wish list, I will own it one day and then fulfill my dream of Wildlife photography.I'll wait for that day eagerly..

Rest someother day,
Taking off for a relaxed weekend.
Adios.

II Internals

2009-10-16T21:31:00.004+05:30

Second internals are finally over,that means we got chance to make up for our averages only in one more attempt.Had a crazy time writing internals,its always mad.Hardly no sleep and then running around to gather the last bit of notes.Always in a an attempt to cram maximum. Phew! Maybe we have always been this way, whole of Engineering! No one ever bothered to actually remember the content from internals,basically a bloody eye wash to show we are bright enough! We study maximum but everything still is new when we sit down to prepare for the end semester exams.

The times when I joined engineering I thought it would be a tough course,well atleast for a start! Gradually I learned the whole process of how an engineering student copes with each and every semester right from dealing with internals,arranging notes,getting the last minute photocopies,ragging,cramming a month in advance for the external papers.It has always been a rat race,maybe our generation was meant to deal with that kind of competition in any field for that matter.Not just in academics,anything is dealt with competition.Someone is superior to the other in some way or the other.It can be anything at all,it doesnt matter.Sometimes academic excellence is not considered,atleast in the hostels of BMS.Well atleast I know the way the hostels work everyday.Somedays its just about the matches like IPL,Football(Whatever it is),etc when everyone is so engrossed in staying up late nights watching matches and when there is nothing you can prove your superiority then it finally comes down to the number of pegs one can down one night and still stay sober.Good if it stops at the amount of Alcohol intake.Sometimes its just way more than the normal crowd would prefer.I dont blame any hostel,it probably happens in every engineering hostel all over the country.Weed,hash,Magic mushrooms are very common.When drinks aint the criteria it finally comes down to how many joints,etc.

All in all,I have learnt a lot in my engineering years, both good and bad.I know what is right and what is wrong.I dont want anyone telling me bout it.I dont regret any moment but yes I know what I am doing and where my limits stand.Dad,if you are reading this post.You have nothing to worry when it comes to me.Always you happen to mention that for me everything was a fascination.Maybe, it was those days when I was always fascinated right from watches,mobiles,etc.I still luv watches! Somethings never change! Maybe those days I was biased and easily influenced.Yeah,partly I agree I was someone who could easily be influenced.I am no more like that anymore.I know my responsibilities and my duties as a son.I will not let you down.

I dont know why I thought of putting up this post,but yes I thought the wrong notions if any has to change coz I know what I am doing.I am a better student and definitely a better son now.

Adios.
Till someother post,
Rahul.

Official Hatred

2009-10-16T01:12:00.004+05:30

I hereby announce that I officially hate the Dept of Chemical Engineering of BMSCE.Even in final year they load us with hell lot of portions for internals,then end up not giving marks.Like for eg, for the first internal of Food Tech she didnt give us the right portions and on top of all that she will ask questions which dont have a proper answers.End of it when we go asking for the marks it looks like no one has got any decent marks and range from 0-30 on 50! She taught us another crappy subject in third sem (MSMC) and there too she was refusing to give marks.Bloody hell,like she's being penalised for every mark that she gives us.

Well for tomo once again she has given hell lot of portion to study that too two days before the internals start.She even expects us to do well while on the other hand she will still not frame the right questions,refuse to give marks,etc.

Grr.
Its 1.30 in the morning and I am still studying for her damn subject!
Rest of the frustration someother day.

Adios.
Got to get back to studyin!..

Weekend

2009-10-11T00:15:00.003+05:30

Weekend has never been the same after I left hostel. I should have just gone to college rather than sitting at home with a Process Control text book wondering what chapters to study when Ma'am hasnt given a clue of the portions yet.I have my internals in 3 days time and like always portions not known,last minute notes still to gather,etc etc.

When will I get a break from all this?! Academically sound,thats one thing I am really glad about.Atleast for now! Other than that,nothing at all in the recent times interest me.Am bored of the net,the craze to catch a movie first day first show,friends get together,hostel ragging,etc.Even bunking an hour is boring,might as well sit in class than agreeing for a mass bunk! I thought year by year engineering would get better.I am not talking anything close to academics.Blah,maybe I should just deal with it for now.

Wake up Sid:

One movie I was eagerly waiting for.Its the kind of movie I like,lot of color,enough comedy to make you smile,little bit of senti scenes.Perfect for a relaxed time at the theatre.Very light hearted movie and nothing like Dev D and Kaminey,I truly didnt like those movies much.Maybe I had something in mind when I went for them.It turned out to be totally different and at some point I wanted the movie to end atleast Dev D.

Rating : 3.75/5
Must watch.

I have started to read again,well almost.Not a great start and really not like how I used to read during my school days or even college days for that matter.Now I have the time and I still dont read as much as I used to.Monthly I do pick up a few magazines like Men's health and Maxim to while away time when I take a crap!
I have started reading this novel 'Of Course I love you..till I find someone better'.Havent progressed much so I will write more about it once I am done with that book(Hopefully soon!).Need to convince myself to sit in one place and patiently read.

Until the next post,
Adios.

The Online Diary

2009-10-09T21:50:00.002+05:30

I have been wanting to find an alternative to my habit of writing a diary.There are times when I keep filling in every other day and then there are times when I dont want to write for maybe a month or so.Keep losing track of details and facts over time.Its irritating when I cant recall details of a particular day.It never struck me that maybe I can have a personal diary online and avoid all the 'junjut' of keeping the diary in the drawer,locking it,etc.

I still prefer when I can actually sit down on my table and give the diary entry lot of thought.Been too lazy these days and then hardly any time.Maybe once in a while I will print the diary entry and stick it back in my actual personal diary,prob every 15 entries or once in a month.

www.my-diary.org/

Thats the link to the online diary!

Adios

Shankar Ehsaan Loy Concert - IIM Bangalore

2009-10-09T18:23:00.002+05:30

It was a dream come true to see the IIM Campus.Last year when KK Came to perform I wanted to go but then I dont know what happened,I didnt go.This year when the posters were out I had made up my mind even if no one is willing to come along with me I will go.
Concert was good but the experience of the IIM Campus was great!

Bored / Frustrated

2009-09-30T21:51:00.002+05:30

I really have no clue as to what is happening all of a sudden but right from the time I have entered into my fourth year of engineering there has been a lot of change.The only issue being the change is not good at all.There has been so much of dullness in day to day life,there is nothing probably I look forward to in a day.I am still not sure if I am actually very bored or frustrated with the monotonous day to day life.Whatever may be the reason,I am just not in a great mood.

Tired of this routine.Waking up,going to college,returning home,gym,books,net and sleep.This is all I have been doing from a very long time.College is definitely boring! Get a period off,thats the worst thing to happen.Argghh..!! To add to all the problems I end up in Selvi's batch for my 8th sem project.I was hoping that I dont get her or any of the other dull teachers like YKS.

Class trip doesnt suit situation so thats finally out of the agenda for this semester.What am I doing?!?

I need a break. I really need to do something different.
Right now I cant think of anything so I might as well go back to listening Pink Floyd.

Adios.

Little Master's new home in Bandra,Mumbai.

2009-09-23T22:35:00.000+05:30

The Bathroom

TV Room

Hall

The shell from outside

SAchin's new house

Movies watched during Boredom!

2009-09-20T22:25:00.001+05:30

Wanted (2009)

By the look of the trailer of the movie I was assuming it would be the typical hindi movie.Salman khan starts of as a villain and then after Intermission I expected him to become the good guy because of ayesha takia's crying and asking him to quit the criminal work.Little did I know that he was an undercover cop,which again is a typical twist but very unexpected.Action sequences well appreciated but what the hell was Ayesha Takia doing.So much of over acting.Salman was his usual self,nothing new.This time too like in every other movie he takes off his shirt.When will he ever stop doing that.Not a must watch but if you manage to get the cd then you could probably take time off to sit through this,like I did.

Rating(For the parts excluding Ayesha Takia) : 3.5/5

The Ugly Truth (2009)

Probably by now everyone knows what the movie is about - Romantic comedy or maybe little more than that.Just got one thing to say,Must watch.

Rating: 4.5/5

BBQ Nation

2009-09-19T22:52:00.006+05:30

My second post came way too quickly and its about this place I have gone a couple of times for lunch.They have these two variations for the buffet and both are actually worth the price.If you havent had dinner the previous night and skipped morning breakfast this is the place you can hog to your heart's content.I havent really noticed the change in the buffet menu as most of the time the starters fill you up that you have no place at all for any of the other things on the buffet menu.

There is no such thing as a must eat but I love the Prawn bbq,Paneer Tikka and Chicken bbq.Dont ask me about the dessert section as I dont like most things sweet or even Ice cream(Exception - Baskin Robbins).

I feel the BBQ Nation at Indranagar is a little crammed esp the bottom floor,well I think they have one more floor like the one in Koramangala.I like the one in Koramangala,its spacious and service is much better.

Ambience : 4/5
Service : 3.75/5
Food(Starters) : 4.25/5
Rate : 3.75/5

A new start and A brief recap

2009-09-18T22:58:00.000+05:30

Everytime I shut down my blog ,after sometime I cum back to the Blogger homepage.I stop for a while and then feel like re-doing/re-starting the whole thing again.I was never good with html codings to put up links,extra sidebars,etc and this again has always been a big task to do once I start blogging.I dont recall as to why I shut down my previous blog.This time I hope to post often,now that I have internet connection at home.Things are much easier and I really hope I dont lose interest once again.

To start of,I dont have anything to really post about so let this be like a fresh start.Do I need to mention about me? I am still wondering.

I am not messing around with the HTML coding for a while atleast so I wont be putting up any links to my blog mates.I dont care if anyone is reading or not or has anything to say at all regarding any post.You may read but I dont want any opinion or comments so I have disabled that option.

My name is Rahul and I am in my final year engineering(Chemical Engineering).Rest as and when I post.

PS:Read if you want to,keep your comments and opinions to yourself and pls do not ask me about anything I write.
Adios.